It has been a long time since I've made a post because I've had a great change in my physical life and in my thinking. Its so unexpected and distressing a change that I couldn't think of the kind of posts I've made in the past, I'm dealing with the new effects in my body, its not just old age, I'm certain its part of the great change on our planet that is affecting greater numbers of people and the very atmosphere of the planet every day. Although today I want to focus on an essay written by Anne Baring about visionary individuals. I've not had even one experience in my life similar to hers or C. G. Jung whom she mentioned was also a visionary; I wouldn't know how to live with a mind that produced some of the inner content that Jung wrote down in his personal books, not in his Collected Works. I'm no visionary like they were.
I read Anne Barings' essay a few years ago. It affected me personally because I've met the intelligence she's met and lived with not as a visionary but as a specific individual female who has been isolated, identified and physically located on this planet. What I wrote and still write about is information I learned from real people and situations in the real world that were used by this intelligence, to control events on the planet, acting through people to illustrate its presence and teach how to understand its language. Carl Sagans' book Contact was an outline of what I experienced literally, it was an introduction to a real world experience of a 'palimpsest' painted over real world events and creating new meanings and a new understanding.
Living through this new change may be a part of the interface from the purposeful intelligence that has led me and made its self evident to me though the events and experiences I've had since I was born physically 01-02-1932. Another birth happened in 1984.
The essay is: http://www.annebaring.com/anbar12_lect09_unexplored.htm. She expressed the particular idea that I want to focus on is:
I've not had one dream or even one vision similar to what they wrote about. I had never heard of Jung when I had my first mindquake in 1984 but by 1989 when I had the second and third mindquakes, I had become convinced his term, 'meaningful coincidence' had other names in the past and was what I was experiencing as symptoms of mental diseased interpretations of events in my life, my whole life.
I have never interpreted even one aspect of the changes that altered the meaning of events in the early 1980's and since then.I've had several major and minor mindquakes that were actual downloads of information about my life, information about ideas I had not thought about myself. Interpretations happened to me. That happened automatically and always was a surprise to me. A local Jungian therapist told me in 1987 the word 'autonomous'means 'the thing that names itself." That works for me. The word 'synchronicity' wasn't in a dictionary when I looked for a definition when I realized the word was the modern equivalent of older descriptions of mental experiences.
I've been told I have some symptoms of Parkinsons' Disease, although its not verified or verifiable apparently. The worst symptom is a loss of energy and balance, A bath towel is too heavy to lift! I can't walk normally without a cane or at times I need the support of a cart on wheels. And at times I experience, without any warning, dizziness that varies from minor to extreme. In the extreme I fall instantly, and may even lose consciousness briefly. A few weeks ago I suddenly felt my body hurtling forwards when I walked towards a shop and I thought I could stop the fall by gripping a heavy cement planter nearby but I couldn't. So I landed on the concrete, injuring my replaced knee, but not seriously.
Its hard to feel confident when such an incident happens so unexpectedly and in public. I remembered later that I'd had a somewhat similar incident happen in 1999. I had the sense of moving rapidly but thinking I could grip something to stop the fall marked that event. I fractured my hip in that incident.
I've joined a support group that includes individuals and families who have physical diseases that I had never heard about, Its a level of suffering that is frightening since many people are not aged like I am, I've read everything I can find on the Internet about PD and other disorders caused by the failure of subatomic particles to function normally. I've watched many YouTube videos that have been uploaded, but nothing explains the loss of energy and balance and the way medication works so well for a short period of time, I can walk without the extra pull of gravity that is the main symptom I experience. Its hard to walk right, left, right, left predictably, This familiar rhythm can suddenly become right, left, left, left, right, left, right, left, right.left, left,
The connection between the essay that Anne Baring wrote and my changed body and mental changes may seem to be evidence of my irrational thinking, but after a long span of becoming aware of myself as a person that was born with a purpose and a goal that was established long before I was born, there is sense that "the system works very well" in all the planetary influences that affect the individual so personally and specifically.
I read Anne Barings' essay a few years ago. It affected me personally because I've met the intelligence she's met and lived with not as a visionary but as a specific individual female who has been isolated, identified and physically located on this planet. What I wrote and still write about is information I learned from real people and situations in the real world that were used by this intelligence, to control events on the planet, acting through people to illustrate its presence and teach how to understand its language. Carl Sagans' book Contact was an outline of what I experienced literally, it was an introduction to a real world experience of a 'palimpsest' painted over real world events and creating new meanings and a new understanding.
Living through this new change may be a part of the interface from the purposeful intelligence that has led me and made its self evident to me though the events and experiences I've had since I was born physically 01-02-1932. Another birth happened in 1984.
The essay is: http://www.annebaring.com/anbar12_lect09_unexplored.htm. She expressed the particular idea that I want to focus on is:
- Anne Baring wrote: "It is now roughly a hundred years since William James wrote his ground-breaking book - The Varieties of Religious Experience. It is clear to me from my study of visionary experience in many cultures that a visionary is aware of the reality of worlds and presences inaccessible to the "normal" state of consciousness, as this drawing by a modern teacher of Kabbalah illustrates. So to end, I would say that I am absolutely certain through my own experience and my long study of visionary experience (see The Mystic Vision) that a wider, deeper consciousness than our own is trying to reach us, trying to make itself known to us. It has been doing so for millennia. Parmenides, Dante and Jung are three individuals who have acted as conduits for this consciousness. As long as this dimension of consciousness is denied existence and dissociated from our own, it will act in the manner of an unconscious autonomous complex, influencing us without our awareness in all kinds of ways. As long as we believe that consciousness begins and ends with the brain, we will never reach what we are capable of becoming - people who, like these three remarkable men, are in conscious communion with metaphysical reality."
I've not had one dream or even one vision similar to what they wrote about. I had never heard of Jung when I had my first mindquake in 1984 but by 1989 when I had the second and third mindquakes, I had become convinced his term, 'meaningful coincidence' had other names in the past and was what I was experiencing as symptoms of mental diseased interpretations of events in my life, my whole life.
I have never interpreted even one aspect of the changes that altered the meaning of events in the early 1980's and since then.I've had several major and minor mindquakes that were actual downloads of information about my life, information about ideas I had not thought about myself. Interpretations happened to me. That happened automatically and always was a surprise to me. A local Jungian therapist told me in 1987 the word 'autonomous'means 'the thing that names itself." That works for me. The word 'synchronicity' wasn't in a dictionary when I looked for a definition when I realized the word was the modern equivalent of older descriptions of mental experiences.
I've been told I have some symptoms of Parkinsons' Disease, although its not verified or verifiable apparently. The worst symptom is a loss of energy and balance, A bath towel is too heavy to lift! I can't walk normally without a cane or at times I need the support of a cart on wheels. And at times I experience, without any warning, dizziness that varies from minor to extreme. In the extreme I fall instantly, and may even lose consciousness briefly. A few weeks ago I suddenly felt my body hurtling forwards when I walked towards a shop and I thought I could stop the fall by gripping a heavy cement planter nearby but I couldn't. So I landed on the concrete, injuring my replaced knee, but not seriously.
Its hard to feel confident when such an incident happens so unexpectedly and in public. I remembered later that I'd had a somewhat similar incident happen in 1999. I had the sense of moving rapidly but thinking I could grip something to stop the fall marked that event. I fractured my hip in that incident.
I've joined a support group that includes individuals and families who have physical diseases that I had never heard about, Its a level of suffering that is frightening since many people are not aged like I am, I've read everything I can find on the Internet about PD and other disorders caused by the failure of subatomic particles to function normally. I've watched many YouTube videos that have been uploaded, but nothing explains the loss of energy and balance and the way medication works so well for a short period of time, I can walk without the extra pull of gravity that is the main symptom I experience. Its hard to walk right, left, right, left predictably, This familiar rhythm can suddenly become right, left, left, left, right, left, right, left, right.left, left,
The connection between the essay that Anne Baring wrote and my changed body and mental changes may seem to be evidence of my irrational thinking, but after a long span of becoming aware of myself as a person that was born with a purpose and a goal that was established long before I was born, there is sense that "the system works very well" in all the planetary influences that affect the individual so personally and specifically.
