"Accompanying the more profound occurrences of synchronicity (is) a dawning intuition, sometimes described as having the character of a spiritual awakening, that the individual herself or himself not only is embedded in a larger ground of meaning and purpose, but also in some sense (is) a focus of it." Richard Tarnas Cosmos and Psyche
The above quotation is embedded in 492 pages + 50 pages of endnotes, etc, little bitty print, not many pictures in the book.
I've not written anything recently, partly because I have had a relative die, and because this relative was younger than I am, she was my grandmother's last child, its affected me in ways I didn't expect. She was schizophrenic but not the typical example. Her house was full to overflow with 'things', all kinds of things, but these objects were stored carefully in plastic totes, nicely arranged and labeled. There were narrow passages, walkways through the rooms.
She lived in chaos but it was orderly and strangely well managed while she lived the life of a nearly destitute elderly female, seemingly without friends or family ties. She and I never got along after we were teens so my contact with her began when we were middle aged and I had become aware that schizophrenia may be a form, a pattern that governs the processes of individuation which was C. G. Jung's idea/regeneration, Emanuel Swedenborg/the 4th way of Gurdjieff and Ouspenksy as well as the 'going postal' experience that she had experienced herself. That's different names for the same pattern, and I had been told I understood my own experience with the pattern. I had written to several authors one of whom was Wilson van Dusen before he died. He had verified my 'hunches' that a life review process does exist and how its experienced as 'coincidences' created by mechanisms of mind that alter thought, or create new thoughts. .
She actually worked for the post office. She felt stalked, she believed someone was entering her house when she left so she wouldn't leave it and she believed that every one that tried to help her was after her house, trying to take it away from her.
She was paranoid. I had contact with her therapist who told me he'd verified her convictions himself, so it seemed to me he was in a 'folie aux duex' (participation mystique is another name for it) relationship with his patient. I've had personal experience with that condition, its very likely we all have that same experience but don't know it, but I had become aware of it in my life, then could see it in other's lives too. It seemed a good idea to be able to talk about this kind of 'bond' in relationships, especially in families.
When she fell and couldn't get up, it was fortunate she did have some non-family friends who checked in and found her, so she was taken to a hospital then to a residence for recovery and evaluation of her home by Social Services to see if it was safe and had minimum requirements, water, heat, etc.
It didn't meet minimum requirements but surprisingly it was obvious that money that should have been spent on food, heat, clothing, maintaining a house was spent on non-essentials such as dolls, knitting yarns that were never used, certain kinds of books, and even cases of food that were never opened and were long past pull date.
Its difficult to change a person's mindset, but some changes in the mind seem to be changes in the material world, I've experienced that several times myself. I'd tried to talk to this aunt but found it impossible for reasons that even psychiatrists don't understand about paranoia and its relationship to the life of an individual in the last half of life. C. G. Jung wrote that the first half of life was preparation for the last half, which indicates some degree of foresight into the future of the individual mind and life.
If this aunt had not been a part of my life, that would have been a huge empty spot, if the goal of my own life was to experience this pattern and to recognize its more than a pattern, this is an idea that has life, and strength and continuity in Time, like a person trying to convey its message, to the human race. I've written most of this in prior posts, I'm very repetitive but its an old idea, I recognize it here, Jesus said it all:
49 “I have come to set the world on fire, and I wish it were
already burning! 50 I have a terrible baptism of suffering ahead of me, and I am
under a heavy burden until it is accomplished. 51 Do you think I have
come to bring peace to the earth? No, I have come to divide people against each
other! 52 From now on families will be split apart, three in favor of me,
and two against—or two in favor and three against.
53 ‘Father will be
divided against son
and son against father;
mother against daughter
and daughter against mother;
and mother-in-law against daughter-in-law
and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.’[e]”
and son against father;
mother against daughter
and daughter against mother;
and mother-in-law against daughter-in-law
and daughter-in-law against mother-in-law.’[e]”
54 Then Jesus turned to
the crowd and said, “When you see clouds beginning to form in the west, you
say, ‘Here comes a shower.’ And you are right. 55 When the south wind
blows, you say, ‘Today will be a scorcher.’ And it is. 56 You fools! You know
how to interpret the weather signs of the earth and sky, but you don’t know how
to interpret the present times.
57 “Why can’t you
decide for yourselves what is right? 58 When you are on the
way to court with your accuser, try to settle the matter before you get there.
Otherwise, your accuser may drag you before the judge, who will hand you over
to an officer, who will throw you into prison. 59 And if that happens,
you won’t be free again until you have paid the very last penny.[f]”
The Internet didn't exist in 1980 when Mt. St. Helens erupted 60 miles away from my home. I wasn't feeling like my normal self but I'd been in an accident and had a complete hysterectomy so for a time those causes explained the changes in my body and a few changes in my thought. I was noticing certain habits I had and wondered about why I noticed them now. Why had I always doodled piles of figure 8's ? Why did I add numbers across automatically, seeing the sum instantly, ignoring 9's 'because they don't change anything or are just place holders? 9548123 = 5 is an example; 9, 54,81 are 9's the remaining 2 + 3 = 5. I knew where the rule originated: an impulse created a thought when I was 9 years old, 'add the double numbers across' when I struggle to memorize the times tables.
It was no person that told me to make my first moebius band also when I was about 9 years old; it was the same impulse. That impulse is embedded somewhere in my mind/brain/body, It has eyes through mine.
It would never have occurred to me to believe the eruption of a mountain blowing her dusty inner contents out to cover the area that was in her wind path corresponded with an emerging eruption of inner contents in myself, people I knew then and what we were doing physically.
In 1983 I had neurological tests done at Harborview Hospital, it was an all day process. When the tests was evaluated I found out my handedness had changed from right to left. I could also write back-wards, mirror image as easily with my left hand as I had written forwards with my right hand. I had never read or heard about 'right brain/left brain' ideas and my experiences now seem to have not been caused by known causes, no accident caused the changes. It was not the result of a hysterectomy. The timing of events began to get my attention and it was obvious that a kind of synchronization between 'thought' and other inner content and what was happening outside of my body was precisely aligned to form the 'movie like plot' that C.G. Jung wrote was the individual life, individuated.
It would never have occurred to me to believe the eruption of a mountain blowing her dusty inner contents out to cover the area that was in her wind path corresponded with an emerging eruption of inner contents in myself, people I knew then and what we were doing physically.
In 1983 I had neurological tests done at Harborview Hospital, it was an all day process. When the tests was evaluated I found out my handedness had changed from right to left. I could also write back-wards, mirror image as easily with my left hand as I had written forwards with my right hand. I had never read or heard about 'right brain/left brain' ideas and my experiences now seem to have not been caused by known causes, no accident caused the changes. It was not the result of a hysterectomy. The timing of events began to get my attention and it was obvious that a kind of synchronization between 'thought' and other inner content and what was happening outside of my body was precisely aligned to form the 'movie like plot' that C.G. Jung wrote was the individual life, individuated.
